High pitched shrill screams that go right through you. Little hands grabbing at you not knowing their strength. Surely there will be a bruise on your arm in the morning. Flailing arms and legs as your small one jumps at you in the midst of a scream with fresh tears shed by the both of you. An unexpected head butting: your little ones head impacting your teeth. Physical pain and anguish grow.
Speaking calmly does not work. Trying to give some gentles squeezes to your child’s arms and legs for positive calming sensory input. No luck. Trying to hug your child and tell him you love him is like screaming silently in your head with no one hearing. You try not to cry again.
You watch helplessly as your heart throws himself on the floor where you hope are only soft stuffed animals. He howls. He screams. He cries.
All of a sudden silence. His legs and arms slow to a halt. He wipes his eyes and runny nose. You sit quietly, watching and waiting; afraid to say or do anything to upset him again.
He sits up and looks at you, that handsome little face! He stands up looking unsure. You hold your arms out to welcome him. He comes to you and quietly, slowly climbs into your lap. He lays his head on your shoulder and puts his arms Round you as you do the same to him. You hug and cuddle for awhile. He murmurs, “mum mum.”
Before you realize it, he has drifted off to dreamland. You hold him and wish for him to have calm restful dreams. You feel his heart beating. His little body seems so peaceful now. You carry him to bed after one last kiss on his cheek or nose or both.
You go to bed exhausted and overwhelmed.
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