Heartbreak

After a fabulous day in the sun and pool with my family … my heart was happy. Then it kinda turned. I pointed out how the sun made lines on my six year old daughters beautiful dark skin from her bathing suit. Then she noticed how much lighter her skin was on her belly compared to her legs. My absolutely gorgeous mixed race child started balling. When I asked her what was wrong, she replied, “I don’t want to be darker over the summer!” I asked her why and told her she is beautiful in every way! She told me, ” I don’t like darker skin”.

My heart broke and crumbled into a thousand pieces. Everything is beautiful about this child from her skin to her mind to her imagination to her smile. I felt ill equipped to handle this as a pale freckled some what skin burned mom. I told her I love every part of her all the time. I told her she is beautiful and strong!

Hours later I’m still crying inside! My hope is that she will see that her outer beauty is as lovely as her inner beauty! I hope she is able to see what I do… a beautiful, brilliant, creative, crafty, friendly, fabulous, lovely, lovable, hip hoppy, smart, strong, sensitive, sweet and swimming girl!

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